I admit to a hard December. Everything out of sync. Stressed. Uncertain. Out of balance. Scared at the enormity of the challenge of caregiving. But finding joy. Moments of peace. Being present even when things felt chaotic. My therapist even asked me if maybe I was done because my goal of living in the moment of my emotions was reached.
I was, admittedly, taken aback.
Reflecting a little bit more I said, “No. Not yet.”
That hesitancy was the realization that caring for one’s mental health is never over. And having that chance to dwell for 50 minutes every couple of weeks is like finding bits of gold panning in the stream of one’s own psyche.
And yes. I’ve been really depressed in my life so this all feels so normal. Sleep well and I have that much more opportunity for riding the ebbs and flows with ebullience, sleep too little and I’m grouchy and stressed. Pretty simple formula!!!
Meanwhile, in the real world of day-to-day … I have a book to write (I am behind), Jed’s health to attend to (Cardiologist on Friday), part time consulting work to augment the bills, and all the rest + those kitties.
Still. The New Year is a pause. A chance for something. A blank slate to relish in. Clean, unlined, and absent of any smudge marks from the erasures of the things one doesn’t feel inordinately proud of.
2022 was an enormous year for me. I can brag about getting a book contract for a new work on women’s boxing, a monthly column for my friends at Women’s Fight News, and a memoir piece to be included in a book called The Difference (working title), that will be published in 2023.
I also had a blast with my iconoclastic pals Chris and Eddie on our WAAR Room podcast and finished up a nine month mastermind group with dear friend Achim Nowak’s My Fourth Act,which brought me new connections and new friends.
As for 2023. So much to do! And not so much resolutions as a list of challenges!
- Finish The Promise of Women’s Boxing (working title)!
- Be more in balance with caregiving
- Maintain my journal again (yep, been a while)
- Write pieces for Girlboxing with more regularity
- Be more consistent in the gym! Months cannot go by any longer!
- Mindfulness in all things
- Nurture my friendships and explore new ones
- Expand the community of caregivers
- Have fun
I have so appreciated sharing the bits and pieces of my life-and all of you for reading them and giving of yourselves in your thoughtful comments and insights. I used to think I could do things alone. Perhaps a sign of finally growing up is knowing that I can’t.
Thank you all for teaching me that.
Wishing everyone a Happy New Year and a fabulous 2023!
Happy New Year, my darling. ❤️
Thank you, Terri-Lynne! Wishing you great joy and happiness in 2023 — plus a FABULOUS book launch!